Did any of us really comprehend what it would mean to relinquish a child-- into another families care?,
some of us birthmothers face not knowing about the life we gave-- others are fortunate to have adopting families that share.
Some of us were lied to and rejected-- after being led to believe that we could take part,
this is the journey traveled--- a deeper look into a birthmother's life-- and more importantly her heart.
Asking for a picture-- waiting for a call--- wanting to know our children are well,
to deny us of our request only fuels the fire for creating a real life Hell.
Why are we viewed as a threat-- maybe you think we will change our minds,
but years pass by and you continue to ignore me and treat me so unkind.
Maybe you think because I relinquished my child into your hands--- now I can just forget and walk away,
if you would listen and look into this birthmother's heart--- you would know I have a lot I need to say.
You only cause me more pain on my journey-- by rejecting and choosing to ignore,
I opened the door for you a family-- and you choose to shut the door.
I gave you a life not because I did not care-- but because I placed my child's needs above my own,
that took so much love-- I walk the road of pain-- so what have you shown?
I understand this is a new and strange relationship but please don't shut me out,
we can journey through this together-- sharing in this gift-- isn't that what life is about?
We are more than birthmothers-- we are women with feelings-- women who chose life,
don't you see by ignoring me-- you only add to my complication and strife??
As a birthmother I feel as though I provided you with my beginning and now it's hard to find a start,
this is the journey traveled-- a deeper look into a birthmother's life-- and more importantly her heart....
Britney Neilson
June 2003
Copyright © 2003 Britney Neilson
