I can't change the past
Or rewind the hands of time
But know that if I could
I'd go back to a day when you were mine
I'd try and look past the moment
To see if I could be good enough
Try and get past the feeling
That things would always be this rough
I'd hold you a little tighter
And sing you one more song
To try and make it easier
When it all felt so wrong
I would have prayed a little more
Before you went away
And maybe in my prayers
I'd figure a way you could stay
But I am sorry I did not do
All the things I wish I had
Sometimes I get so angry
And its hard not to stay mad
I loved you I carried you
I brought you into this world
I know you may not see it now
But I loved you my lil girl
I wish things were different
And I am sorry that they are not
I've wrestled with my emotions
Many demons I have fought
You, sweet girl, are the best of me
Maybe by giving you a better start
A brighter future than mine you'll see
I hope this with all my heart
But as you walk along the journey of life
Some where nestled deep inside
Is a mothers hope for you and your future
A first mothers love can't be denied
It's there when you take that first step
Or figure out how to run
It's there when the moon comes out at night
As well as the awakening of the sun
It's there when you think you can't
Assuring you yes you can
It's there when you think you are all alone
Yet it feels like someone is holding your hand
It's there no matter where you go
Or how far away you may be
Because somewhere deep inside you
Is a little part of me
Copyright © 2003 Cindy Jordan
